Two months living in the FATAMORGANA's life of me and I've got nothing!! I realized that I need to come out from it and try to live in the real life with bitterness and sweetness and try to accept what the real part of my life.
Sometimes I wanna run away from the uncomfortable situation and try to looking out to the nice environment. but until when I will do escape action? of course it's so sad when I took for long waiting ( 2 months it's long???) what I need in my life is never come. well, it's depand of the person how long is too long for you...
To be a mature person is not easy! sometimes our act like a kid, when we asking something to buy from our mom or dad, the kid forces them to get it as soon as possible and start crying and do noising without any patience at all even for a single hour or a couple days. The kid angry and hate the parents, and said that " dad you are a bad dad", "you have no mercy on me", "you have no understanding on me", "you have no bla bla bla..on me" atc. and when the parents gives what the kid wants, the kid confess that " dad, you are good to me, you are a best dad over the world and more and more....!!
agree or disagree, that's happen also in our life as mature person. When we ask something from God, at that time, when He gave, we easily to praise Him, to worship Him and to say thanks to Him, but when one thing that He need a time to think about it or He need some time may be 2 months later, maybe 5 months later, maybe 5 years mhh... we can't say oh God, you are really good to me! hardly to confess, oh God, you are nice to me, or you are understand to me! often we say; God, are you hear me? are you listen to me? are You understand me? are You pay attention to me? are You forget me now?
as human being, we like the good thing. we love the wonderful thing. we can't consider with the bad thing, and if possible never facing the terrible thing.
Now, I need wake up from this romantic situation! I want to be a real mature even it so hard to do. Back to my real condition. Yet, my dream not come true till now, enough for 2 months living in my Fatamorgana's life. I refresh my strength from God, walking with hope and go forward without thinking going back to my past and I can praise the Lord with or without nice condition. Stop to create my own story in my mind and let God creates my story in His hand's writing. And I believe that my story life more wonderful in the time than I have had created it before. Bravo Veny
Sometimes I wanna run away from the uncomfortable situation and try to looking out to the nice environment. but until when I will do escape action? of course it's so sad when I took for long waiting ( 2 months it's long???) what I need in my life is never come. well, it's depand of the person how long is too long for you...
To be a mature person is not easy! sometimes our act like a kid, when we asking something to buy from our mom or dad, the kid forces them to get it as soon as possible and start crying and do noising without any patience at all even for a single hour or a couple days. The kid angry and hate the parents, and said that " dad you are a bad dad", "you have no mercy on me", "you have no understanding on me", "you have no bla bla bla..on me" atc. and when the parents gives what the kid wants, the kid confess that " dad, you are good to me, you are a best dad over the world and more and more....!!
agree or disagree, that's happen also in our life as mature person. When we ask something from God, at that time, when He gave, we easily to praise Him, to worship Him and to say thanks to Him, but when one thing that He need a time to think about it or He need some time may be 2 months later, maybe 5 months later, maybe 5 years mhh... we can't say oh God, you are really good to me! hardly to confess, oh God, you are nice to me, or you are understand to me! often we say; God, are you hear me? are you listen to me? are You understand me? are You pay attention to me? are You forget me now?
as human being, we like the good thing. we love the wonderful thing. we can't consider with the bad thing, and if possible never facing the terrible thing.
Now, I need wake up from this romantic situation! I want to be a real mature even it so hard to do. Back to my real condition. Yet, my dream not come true till now, enough for 2 months living in my Fatamorgana's life. I refresh my strength from God, walking with hope and go forward without thinking going back to my past and I can praise the Lord with or without nice condition. Stop to create my own story in my mind and let God creates my story in His hand's writing. And I believe that my story life more wonderful in the time than I have had created it before. Bravo Veny
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